Old Fart

Yes, I can't believe another year has past. I am now 25 years old. I don't know what it is about this birthday, but I feel so old. All my other birthdays I've just been like, yeah another birthday...yada yada yada. But this one I'm really feeling it. Its like this is a mile marker. Ding, Ding, Ding you are half way to 30!

My birthday has been kind of boring, but relaxing. Dad had to go up to PA to help a friend out and he took Isabel and Anthony with him. It has just been me and Gabriella. I thought I would enjoy the peace and quite, but I'm not. As soon as they left I was like, Crap! What am I going to do now? I woke up, didn't have to cook anybody breakfast, haven't had to play any kid games, no yelling, no cleaning up spills and messes. I don't know what to do with myself. I have been completely bored. I thought this is exactly what I wanted, but I have come to realize that my kids are my life and I can't live with out them. I am like a lost puppy trying to find his way back home. I have realized what I really want is quality family time. With EVERYBODY there! That would be a blissfull moment.